A Leap of Faith
On December 30, 2016, I finally chose to walk away from my job. It was perhaps the only consistent thing in my life. I had worked as a massage therapist for nearly five years when I began to feel stuck and underappreciated. I realized I wanted more out of life and could no longer grow in that environment. I debated whether to venture to open my own massage studio for several months. Finally, I decided to take a leap of faith. Although my mind was set to leave, I felt ambivalent about submitting my two-week notice. I questioned whether I should wait another year, or until I received my tax return. Suddenly, I realized, that the more I questioned my decision, the more my resolve weakened. I had to just do it, and I did!
The major problem was that I didn’t have a business plan, no start-up money, and none in savings. As well, I’d just purchased my first home six months prior, and I had a one-year-old daughter. To overcome my anxiety about these things, I transmuted my fear into motivation. I had to succeed for fear of losing my home and failing to provide for my daughter. Indeed, the first year [after quitting] was hell. I thought many times about going back to work. I applied for a job as a masseuse at a local resort. Though I attended three interviews, I never got a callback.
Fast forwarding to today, I’m proud to report that I have now successfully run my own business for almost two years despite the setbacks. Admittedly, I am still not where I want to be, but I’m getting there. A lot of people I thought had my back are nowhere to be found. This helped me understand; not everyone wants to see me do well.
Becoming an entrepreneur has been one of the most difficult and rewarding things in my life. It’s certainly not for everyone. In retrospect, I am very thankful I have a skill that is marketable. It has allowed me to make a living and take care of my princess. Through this journey, I have met great people and garnered tremendous support. I thank God for giving me a vision and for the strength to do better. I appreciate my clients and all who support Nathan’s Massage. I’m excited about the future. I feel it can only get better with time!